where have I been?

i guess you are wondering where I have been,,,. well I have been here... and the answer is NO.. I have not been following the plan..I have been exercising.. not even as well as I should have there.. I went to the orthopedic dr yesterday,,I have been having pain in my feet again,.. and thankfully just as I had suspected. it was time for new orthodics.. and I also have to get new sneakers.. the dr told me not to run for 2 weeks to allow the pain to stop completely.. that is no biggie..I will just do the eliptical and walk and such.. I am going to keep pushing forward.. a little pain not going to hold me back! This is Easter weekend and I am thrilled that my grandbabies are coming down for a visit! and of course my son and his wife as well.. we are camping until Sunday.. looking forward to good friends coming over tomorrow and doing some eating and egg coloring! it is a little chilly out there today but nothing a nice campfire can't handle.. rain tonight and most of tomorrow but I have some errands to run anyway! Everyone have a great holiday and don't forget to remember to thank Jesus Christ for his amazing sacrifice so that we may live!

Back to the grind!

We are back at Monday! It comes so fast I don't usually know how we got here! The weekend went well.. I got up Saturday morning and took a trip up the the West End to run a 5k.. It was freezing out! Wind blowing really really cold! But Steven and I did it!! Steven did an amazing job coming in at just over 30 minutes! Way to go baby boy!! And I.. well I finished it! my time was not good.. I did it in 49 minutes! which really isn't good..but it was my first of the season and I needed a time to beat next one..and that will be the time to beat! God willing as time goes on.. I will get better and better! After Friday's fiasco on the scale.. my eating this weekend was not great.. well not even good! I ate decent meals but did allow myself a couple of treats and more soda than a body needs!! and once again, I feel ashamed of myself.. I feel like a cocaine addict must feel.. just totally playing that game in your mind.. not a big deal if I just eat a small piece of cake and it doesn't matter how fat I am.. it is a constant battle! I never realized how much of a battle it really is until this go round.. I really have a problem with food.. I gave up smoking so much easier then this.. But another day.. another do over! Thank you Lord for your forgivness, your grace and your mercy! Have a great day.. and please please keep me in your prayers.. realizing I have a problem is only a small step in my recovery!

I have made it to Friday!!

Ok today sucks already!! I got up my usual 5:30 to go to the gym and being Friday I stepped on the scale.. well glory be if I didn't gain another 2 tenths of a pound!! Read my lips I am DONE!! I will continue to exercise as sick as it sounds, I enjoy it. but I will be eating whatever I want from now on.. this whole eating healthy thing is gone now.. So if you see me from now on and you don't like the fat... hey turn your head! I don't have the strength to write anymore this morning.. I have work piled on my desk and I am forced to do that.. have a great day and I will talk when I am not so angry! Pray for me today!! I need it!

Beautiful Thursday!

It is Thursday and the sun is shining! Praise God!! I went to my very first Zumba class last night! it was fun worked up a good sweat.. there were some of the dances that got pretty fast and I struggled to do the right moves! I don't think I will ever move my hips the way the skinny little instructor guy was! all in all a success!! This morning I was up bright and early... actually went for a swim this morning.. that was a nice change.. I try to mix my workouts up a bit.. keep it interesting.. I have to be honest here.. i haven't been keeping up with my points.. I know how important it is.. but I have just totally dropped the ball on it.. I have been following the plan and most things I eat I do know the points... but not all and I haven't been measuring.. so when I get on the scale tomorrow and it doesn't tell me what I want to hear.. who can I blame?? you got it.. that would be all on me! I am sooo tired.. I feel like I never stop running.. I leave my house at 5:45 a.m. and am usually not home until 7:30 or 8:00 at night.. that is a long day.. and now 5k season is starting my first one is Saturday.. but this is the price I have to pay for letting myself get this fat in the first place.. so I sacrifice my tv time?? big deal!! I can and will do this.. don't try and get in my way!! Well you have yourselves a great day and I will talk to you soon!! God Bless..

wednesday.. for real this time!

Ok.. first I am sorry I put that yesterday was Wednesday! Until I was called out on it.. I had no idea I messed up! Goes to show you where my mind was.. certainly not with me! So.. today is WEDNESDAY!! I did get up and go to the gym this morning! Yay me! I will either do spin (I am on the waiting list and if I get called) or Zumba tonight! Got to keep getting that cardio in!! Last night the weather was yucky so I did not go to the track and walk/run.. I ate a healthy dinner and relaxed for a change! I have a lot on my plate right now but I am trusting God to help me find the time to do all that needs to be done. I am going to be speaking at a Women's dinner on May 6th and I am so freaked out that I will have nothing to say! Again, that is where my trust in God comes in.. he will provide me with the words and also the women to speak them to!! Packed all good food and snacks for today! hang with me peeps this is bound to get easier one of these days!! Right! lol!!

rain, rain and some more rain

It's Wednesday and it is raining... again! Got my walk/run in last night before the rain started... came home to homemade chicken soup! it was delightful! It was 8:00 by the time I got home last night! I was supposed to go the gym this morning and swim... I did not! My legs are so sore.. I layed there and talked myself right out of it.. Gosh that makes me angry.. who do I blame.. ME, MYSELF and I.. it was my laziness that kept me in the bed.. tonight I am supposed to be going to the track to walk/run tonight due to weather, not sure I will get it in either?? Thank goodness I packed good food to eat today! I would love to tell you that I will jump on the treadmill when I get home.. I won't!! once I am home.. I want to do nothing. for now.. I must work my 8 hours.. I am exhausted already and the day has just started!! I will talk to you soon.. God bless

weekend is over

another weekend has come to an end and I find myself right back at work! I had a busy weekend.. Friday night rehearsal and then Saturday I hung out with my granddaughter, Jaclyn! We got our nails done and went out to lunch did a little shopping... Saturday night was the concert and Sunday church and home to do my food preparation for the week! This morning up at 5:30 to the gym now at the office and even took 20 minutes to walk over the funeral home to check on Chrissy. her aunt passed and she has been very upset about it. After work I am off to First Strides! Busy Busy! I have done pretty good with the diet all weekend there was just no exercise! It is hard to work that into a already busy day.. but I am working on somethings that I can do on the weekends.. I have another busy week! gym, work, spin, Zumba!!For now I must get back to work! just keep praying for me! and thanks..