Back to the grind!

We are back at Monday! It comes so fast I don't usually know how we got here! The weekend went well.. I got up Saturday morning and took a trip up the the West End to run a 5k.. It was freezing out! Wind blowing really really cold! But Steven and I did it!! Steven did an amazing job coming in at just over 30 minutes! Way to go baby boy!! And I.. well I finished it! my time was not good.. I did it in 49 minutes! which really isn't good..but it was my first of the season and I needed a time to beat next one..and that will be the time to beat! God willing as time goes on.. I will get better and better! After Friday's fiasco on the scale.. my eating this weekend was not great.. well not even good! I ate decent meals but did allow myself a couple of treats and more soda than a body needs!! and once again, I feel ashamed of myself.. I feel like a cocaine addict must feel.. just totally playing that game in your mind.. not a big deal if I just eat a small piece of cake and it doesn't matter how fat I am.. it is a constant battle! I never realized how much of a battle it really is until this go round.. I really have a problem with food.. I gave up smoking so much easier then this.. But another day.. another do over! Thank you Lord for your forgivness, your grace and your mercy! Have a great day.. and please please keep me in your prayers.. realizing I have a problem is only a small step in my recovery!