TGIF!

Well I thought I felt defeated yesterday... I am totally depleated today! Today was my weigh in and I gain two tenths of a pound! Really!! I worked so hard this week and it doesn't seem to be paying off at all.. I should have lost something... On top of that I am so overwhelmed with my financial mess right now.. I just want to go to sleep and wake up skinny and wealthy!! lol.. I did go to spin last night... I did go to the gym this morning.. I am keeping up and maintaining my points.. Not sure what else I can do... I am trying to pray and give it all to God..but I am struggling to even do that this morning.. I am gonna get some work done here.. busy day at the office today.. I am going to keep my head up and move forward.. even if some of you have to get behind me and push!! talk soon.

so close to Friday!

Another rainy morning! I went to spin class last night and thought I would die! It was really tough one! Pete pushes and pushes... and I had nothing left to give! Got up and went to the gym this morning.. and have another spin class tonight.. my legs are completely shot! I have worked them really hard this week! 5k season is coming quick and I have got to get them in shape! I find when I work like that after work.. I eat dinner and really don't look for snacks! that is a good thing!! I was feeling really good about everything.. finished my workout and then showered and there was that big mirror in the changing room at the gym.. and I realized how far I have to go and for that instant felt so defeated... but I know this is what I did to myself so I have to change that now... I just wish I looked better.. not quite so pregnant!! enough complaining.. just going to keep moving forward! again I have packed only good and healthy food for my day here at the office. and dinner is a good and healthy one as well!! Just have to watch my snacking and I will be set! I am going to get busy on my day here and I will talk to you all soon!

good day... so far!

It is Wednesday morning and I am sooo tired but feeling good! Went to ESU last night and walked and a little jogging.. left a little earlier then I wanted to but my feet were killing me! Ate a nice grilled chicken dinner,, got up this morning went to the gym and did my 30 minutes of strength training and then went upstairs and instead of the treadmill (because of my sore ankles) I did 35 minutes on the eliptical!! and.... I was on the waiting list for spin tonight and actually got a call already and I'm in!! I am spinning tomorrow night as well!! I am finally feeling better about this again! Now if I could start feeling good about my finances!! I know, I know.. God's got it! I remind myself about a million times a day!! packed all good and healthy snacks as well as lunch.. so today is going to be a good day!! Thanks for listening to me drag on.. I will talk again soon!

another day!

Here we are on Tuesday!! I have had a busy day thus far and have now only been able to sneak a few minutes in to catch you up. I left my house at 8:05 this morning for work, normally I would get here by 8:30, this morning not until 9:30... it appears there was a bad accident on Rt. 80 and they wound up shutting it down.. which left every other road into Stroudsburg.. jam packed!! I just pray that no one was hurt in the accident. and by the time I got here.. work was already piling up for me! that does make for a quicker day to be busy like that! I went to First Strides last night and it nearly killed me! Running up the hills was kicking my butt!! I run on the treadmill all the time, but what a difference when you actually get outside...After work this evening it is off to ESU for a run on the track! so far I am doing much better then last week! which is a great thing.. as far as my food goes.. I have been eating salad with grilled chicken in it for lunch.. tonights dinner is grilled chicken and vegetables!! the only sweets that I have had today is sugar free pudding! and of course a banana! It feels really good to be back on track again! I pray that it will last and I won't find an excuse to sabatoge myself again!! God has been so faithful to me as I ask for the strength he has given it to me.. the problems occur when I try to handle things on my own.. because I can so easily talk myself out of exercising and measuring my food and making good choices with my food.. So for now, I must get some more work done.. I will talk again soon..

crazy weekend

Hello again! I had a long and busy weekend. We had a sudden and tragic death in the family.. was in Jersey for a couple of days paying respects there. I have to be honest and say I did not keep tabs of any points, did not do any exercise and honestly there wasn't a lot of dieting in there either. I did say last week that I needed a do over week and well that starts today! I am starting over today.. I can't worry about last week it is gone and "I did what I did"... I have my First Strides group tonight and I packed my healthy lunch and snacks! I am moving in the rigth direction here! I just wish it didn't take so long to arrive! I worked very hard in the kitchen yesterday after church.. I prepared the good foods to pack this week. I made my lunch so all I had to do this morning was grab and go! I will say it again.. for me.. being prepared and planning ahead is key!! if I go into without a plan the odds are good I will pick the wrong thing! I got on the scale Friday and had gained a pound! I could have cried! But like I said, I am starting fresh today! I feel like I have a ton of stress on me and I allow that to control me.. So pray for me today as I release it all to God!

another day.. whoopie!!

I have drug my butt into work again today.. I just can't shake the blahs! My whole game is off.. I STILL haven't exercised... I am not keeping up with my points the way I am supposed to be?? Lord help me! I am in that I just don't care place! and I have to move on and get my self esteem up there again.. I just am not sure how?? It is hard to look at myself everyday in the mirror and feel good about it.. I hate the way I look.. and suddenly I find myself with jellybeans in my hand??! as if that is going to solve any problems for me.. so I know you read this and think when does the adventures come in.. when will I feel encouraged?? I am sorry I really want to be better then this and maybe someday I just might be.. it just doesn't seem like it will be today!

Hump day!

Here it is Wednesday and it feels like it should be Friday! This week has sucked! I have not done any exercise this week, I can sit here and give you all the reasons why.. but bottomline is I have done nothing!!! I have no ambition to do anything.. I have no desire to eat healthy.. (thankfully I pack a healthy lunch everyday) although I have been.. except for the delicious starburst jellybeans last night! I could not help myself! they were good too!! I feel like I need a do over for this week.. I am not going to give up, but I do have to refocus and start over! Slow and steady win the race.. right?? NOT!! I have done far too many 5k races slow and steady and have never won one! Hang in there with me people.. one of these days I just might actually win! have a blessed day!